“I can’t do this…It’s not my thing…You don’t really want ME, do you?…I’m not that guy…Have you seen my track record?...You know what I’ve done…You can do better than me…I don’t deserve this…Find somebody else.”
Have you ever felt like this? You come to church and hear the preacher calling you to do something…maybe even something great. You even feel a burning, like maybe God really is calling you to be this…
world-changer. But immediately doubt creeps in. You know yourself; you know what you’re like, who you are and what you’ve done, and your first instinct is to dismiss the call altogether. How could God use you? Filthy, weak, broken little you?
You realize, don’t you, that this is Saul’s story? The great man we now call the
Apostle Paul, who traveled the world planting churches and reaching people for Christ, who spoke before emperors and preached the gospel to millions was once an overzealous, violent man who persecuted the Church of Jesus Christ, even putting Christians to death.
Read Acts 22:1-16.Even though Paul once stood in direct opposition of God, He was called for a special task.
Read 1Timothy 1:12-17.How did Paul view himself? Do you ever think of Paul as the “worst of sinners?” What things are you holding on to? Is something keeping you from doing what God is calling you to do? Pray that God would reveal these things and remove them.
Read 2 Corinthians 4:7.Paul recognized that God’s mercy was shown to him as an example. If God could forgive Saul and use him, then he could use anyone, no matter how
broken and
blemished. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done, how many times you’ve strayed or ignored or turned away from God. He wants to love you. He wants to use you. He’s calling you now…will you follow?
Take time to pray. Pray for God’s healing, pray for His forgiveness, and pray that he would give you the strength and courage to follow His call, no matter where it takes you.